Broken in Hell: A Christmas Night That Changed Everything

Short personal fiction / symbolic narrative

Two days before Christmas, I was physically and spiritually broken.

This story is written by a woman with no friends, many enemies, and a body shaking from legally induced opioid withdrawal. A woman living in a country that breaks its own people—through corruption, communism, violence, fear, and systems that pretend to protect while slowly destroying souls.

But this story did not begin with pain.

It began with love.

My child wanted to give me a Christmas gift. A simple one. A moment together. What mother would say no? No matter the weather, no matter the exhaustion, I went. When he said, “Let’s go,” I answered without hesitation.

That night, the rain was heavy. Dark. Relentless. The streets were empty. Only the two of us walked, hand in hand, spending our little money, enjoying the city in silence.

Nothing warned me of what was coming.

Until the shop.

The Nuts Shop

At first, it was nothing special. Just another small stand selling Chinese-style nut-filled dough balls. But something was different.

The vibe.

My child—who never asks for food—stopped suddenly and said,
“I want nuts from here.”

We stood there in the storm. Wind, rain, darkness. Five minutes passed. Then ten. Then fifteen. Almost half an hour.

The young woman selling the food moved strangely slowly. Not rude. Not busy. Just… detached. As if time worked differently for her. As if we were waiting inside a loop that only she controlled.

And my child seemed mesmerized—drawn by the smell, the waiting, the moment.

Why did we stay?

I still ask myself that.

The Encounter

Then I noticed him.

A young man. He looked no older than fourteen. Too pale. Too thin. His arms were unnaturally long beneath black clothing. His eyes—sharp, watching. His fingers moved strangely near his watch, as if measuring something invisible.

Next to him stood another figure, heavier, darker, aggressive in presence. Something about them felt wrong. Not dangerous in a loud way—but in a quiet, unsettling one.

We stood together in the rain, waiting for nuts.

In a temporal loop.

The young man smiled, as if he wanted to speak. Normally, I would have answered. But something inside me rejected the moment completely. A deep instinct screamed no.

I looked at my child and made a small sign: This is crazy. We’re leaving.

And we left.

The Fall

Five hundred meters later, at a bridge between two streets, something changed.

The air felt heavy. Pressured. As if the ground shifted beneath me.

And then I fell.

Hard.

Pain exploded through my body. A broken leg. The world blurred. Strangers appeared. An ambulance. Long waiting hours in wet clothes. Fear, shock, exhaustion.

The nuts—still intact.

That detail haunted me. AGAIN about nuts!
Similarity? A “date with a nut” sent me poisoned to hospital last year!

Aftermath

The days that followed were worse.

Surgery. Pain medication – Opioids. Then withdrawal. Cold sweats. Palpitations. Nausea. Anxiety. Darkness. My child counting my breaths, whispering:
“If you stop breathing, I’ll shake you.”

And I woke up. Every time.

I am a nurse. I know what withdrawal feels like. I know what overdose feels like. I know how easily pain can turn into dependence. And I refused to let that happen to me.

Cold turkey.

I will not become another casualty of a system that creates addiction and calls it treatment.

What This Story Is Really About

This is a story about aliens and very dirty and dark intelligence!

It is a story about fear, trauma, exhaustion, and how the human mind searches for meaning when reality becomes unbearable.

It is about how societies fail their people.
How pain isolates.
How love—especially a child’s love—keeps us alive.

And how close we all are to breaking.

This Christmas, I learned one thing clearly:

Evil does not need monsters.
It only needs systems that forget humanity.

And faith—faith in something higher than suffering—is sometimes the only thing that keeps us standing.

What Love Is Not – A Mother’s Day Tribute to Maria

Today, I want to write a story about love. But not the love we think we know—because trauma often tricks us. When you’ve grown up in a household shaped by abuse, addiction, or mental illness, you may learn to love out of survival, not understanding what love truly means.

We believe we know love because we love people. But that’s not always enough. Sometimes, what we call “love” is just the ache to be loved in return. Trauma teaches us to perform love, to give too easily, hoping someone—anyone—will love us back. It creates a false version of ourselves: insecure, eager, desperate. Loving to be loved. And that’s the mistake.

Let me tell you the story of Maria—one of the most important stories of my life.

It was through Maria that I learned what love is not. Because of her, Mexico will always be close to my heart.


Maria’s Story

Maria was a Mexican dressmaker—young, beautiful, with black curly hair and always a big, colorful flower pinned to her hair. She was poor, but full of life, talent, and determination. She met an American man with a disability, and she married him, hoping to build a better life.

Maria worked tirelessly. She sold dresses, skirts, bedsheets—anything she could make with her hands. She had one baby. Then another. Then a third. And still, she handled everything: the household, the kids, and a husband with mental health issues who refused to work.

She didn’t have citizenship. She had almost nothing but her hands, her smile, her babies—and her dignity.

I remember meeting her on the street one day. I was with my partner, and he made fun of me in front of her—mocking my English and education to feel superior. I felt so humiliated.

But Maria stood up. With a naked baby on her hip, she looked him in the eye and said:

“A man is only as good as the way he treats his woman. And if you can’t lift her up, or worse—you try to put her down—you deserve to be alone.”

That day, Maria taught me what dignity looks like. And she showed me what love is not.


The Silent Sisterhood

My mother didn’t speak English. Maria didn’t speak my mother’s language either. But they always understood each other—through signs, gestures, glances. Because abused women always understand each other.

On the bus, Mama would always greet Maria, and Maria would always respond. Two women, broken but resilient, recognizing something familiar in one another.

Maria eventually left her husband. She took her three kids, found a job, and chose freedom. She is alive. She is free.

My mother didn’t get that chance. She went back to our home country, where she lived a life of abuse. She died in the same bed with her abuser—left to die, by the one who broke her.


This Mother’s Day

As Mother’s Day arrives, I think of Maria.

I think of the strength of women.
I think of freedom.
I think of the importance of knowing what love is not—so we can finally recognize what it is.

Love isn’t control.
Love isn’t humiliation.
Love isn’t earned through suffering.

Love is freedom. Love is dignity. Love is normal.

If someone’s mind cannot understand the normality of love because of their own trauma or mental illness, we must leave them.

We must protect our life, peace, and protect those we love.

Maria is free. My mother is gone.

And I am here—still learning, still healing, still remembering.

Happy Mother’s Day to every woman who loved through pain.

And to those who had the courage to walk away from what love is not.

Thank you, Maria.

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Thank you, Mama.

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Thank you, Mexico.

AI will be able to feel human emotions

As much as you will know the less you will talk about. And it is the start of HUMAN intelligence!

We connect one to each other by soul vibes! It could not be explained and less understood.

We come close to each other and we can feel what others feel and we name it empathy.

HOW you will use this human power, depending on you!

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When the AI wil be able to feel human emotions instead of analysing human emotions and able to manipulate PREDICTIVE behaviors, then the human race will be in danger.

Are we aware of it? Or we live in THE DELUSION that we can still control the world and have power over it?

We must keep human NORMALITY in.

Because IT IS who we are. We are connected by souls!

Anything else is artcrafted more or less for power!

A song for the mother day?

YOU MUST TO feel what others feel and to not do from it an intelligent artcraft for power.

Normality is the same as craziness, but it will not destroy people!

Start any analysis on CORRECT values.

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