Tears in Hell

I cried. I cried through my childhood, my teenage years, and even during my marriage, surviving both emotional and physical abuse.

And then I became wild—wild so that no one would ever touch me again. Ever!

But no one taught me that people struggling with mental health issues could destroy you even worse than physical abuse.

Because women, like me, always try to fix someone. And that’s the trap!

No one can truly be fixed. No one can be taken care of .

Mental health struggles can’t be cured—they can be managed, controlled, and balanced, but never cured.

And if you try to fix them, you will lose the battle. Every. Single. Time.

So I cried again. From 2002 to 2007, I cried every single day—worse on Christmas than on any other day. Like today.

Because people with mental health issues are unable to realize what they’re doing.

To them, it’s normal. But their “normality” isn’t normal.

I read hundreds of books. I took hundreds of classes.

And still, I learned this hard truth: people with mental health struggles CAN use and manipulate others—because no one will tells them the truth about THEM own selves!

No one says: “You are mental sick, and if you’re not aware of it, your behavior will hurt and destroy normal people. Or worse—others who are already hurted because of someone like you.”

So I cried.

Until one day, I was saved and FREE in the USA.

But I wasn’t safe. I was still an easy target—still used and abused. Vulnerable people will always remain vulnerable until they become aware of their vulnerabilities.

But today, the cycle of my abuse ended!

No more tears. No more wild responses. No more being manipulated by narcissistic behaviors. No more ignorance of toxic dynamics like triangulation. No more tolerating obsessive or controlling behaviors.

Today, I stood up and spoke out.

This is the truth. This is THE normal—not madness, not chaos, not twisted behaviors.

Like it or not, everyone is free to embrace their own “madness”—but NOT with me. Not around me.

So today, I didn’t cry. I wasn’t wild. I simply said: NO.

No to manipulation. No to madness.

Normality, not Craziness!